Note to my Juniors

A NOTE TO MY JUNIORS

Many of you know me, I am Mansi mam to lot of you, I believe. So, I made my mind that I will share this to my juniors but thanks to corona, I could never tell you this. This is a little part of my journey which I wanted to tell you.

So, when I came to this college, I was disappointed I wanted to go Tier I colleges. Don't be surprised, since I was one of the best students in my school. I always won that best student medal and I was good in academics. But IIT needed something which I didn't have. I never wanted to drop and wait for another year, so I came here. I attended the first day and realised this college is nowhere near IIT. I was more disappointed. I started believing that I was good for nothing. When people said till 12 anyone can score good grades, I accepted. I became a failure in my journey. I was still recovering when this strange thing happened. It was some college event and I liked a guy a lot. Shockingly, he proposed my friend. I was like, academics was zero now appearance also zero. So, I became a looser in my life. I accepted me as a looser. Now, I thought let me make friends.

I was a naïve. I never smoked or drank. But all my friends always made plan of meeting at a sutta point, some random bar. I felt completely left out. I felt I am so UNCOOL, and all they're so cool.

I tried to cope up somehow, but my confidence shattered. It broke me. I started feeling that I was good for nothing. On the top of it, I started feeling homesick. Thankfully, I entered a relationship. It was a more of a friendship zone where I gained back my confidence. I started believing in myself. I started accepting myself. But then, life is nothing without tragedy. It all got over leaving me to much more shattered zone. Now, I was not just disappointed, but I was in pain. It took me eight months to recover from that zone. But that eight months costed me my everything. I came out as a low esteemed person, poor academic, 6 backs at college and now a COOL person. I never say that smoking or drinking gives you moral but for me it was morals, I gave up on my moral, to escape from this situation.

It was the turning point of my life. Because now when I went to my college after months, my seniors called me trickery, they called me fast, the friends who I thought will love me now because I am cool now called me smart and on the top of that my teachers called me spoiled. I took another month off to build in that confidence that I can face everyone. I failed again.

Then, I met a person. He is no less than a darling to me. He was my friend, he believed in me. He understood me and he did everything to bring back my confidence. This confidence of him made me believed that maybe I can. I have nothing left to lose, so why not start again. I started meeting people, I went out, I planned trips and It worked. It took me some months, but it worked. I stood up as a confident person. Now no one bothered me. Surprisingly, everyone accepted me now. I made lot of friends, so many proposals and more than that better academics. It was like a rebirth to me. But you know, the only thing all this taught me was,

IT IS JUST YOU THAT MATTER, YOU SHOULD BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND THE ONLY PERSON THAT CAN PULL YOU DOWN IS YOU, YOURSELF

Now, everything fell into place. It doesn't end the tragedies and deceits in my life. But now I had that courage to deal with everyone and survive alone.

Now, whatever I did was for myself and not for others. I made beautiful and genuine connections with people. And unexpectedly, everyone started loving me. My darling juniors, you all will fail many times, believe in you and don't end up being cool for the sake of others. And most importantly Never give up!